I see myself in her. I see her in myself.
The sparkle in her eyes as she goes there and explores the world.
Her eagerness to be back in the comfort of the known.
I sense my own need to be loved in the warmth of her touch.
The desire to take everyone in the fold of her love.
The hunger for the written and spoken words.
I see my love for colors in her paint brush.
I hear my voice in her singing.
I see flare of my anger in her animated gestures.
I see my own reflection in her..
Death is a painful word. And we avoid uttering it as much as possible in our daily lives. Of late I have become more accepting to the fact that sooner or later it would happen and I should be better prepared for it. Preparing my will is the first step. And I finally drafted it today! From the way I would want to be cremated to details of my eyes/organ donation card, and of course the distribution of assets - I have tried to cover all. There is no denying that writing it was therapeutic experience in itself and I regretted having not done it sooner.
And all of sudden we see rise in religious sentiments – boasting of how pious their principles are and how this one day is responsible for the decline of moral values in their people!
Grief is not an event in your life. It becomes a way of life. In many ways, it becomes you.
It manifests itself in form of unspoken good byes. It becomes a person, always following you around. It becomes a baggage which you carry wherever you go. And then it starts to take over your body – by taking away your hunger, restfulness, and replacing everything with a blurred vision. Almost turning you into chaos.
To all those who made this movie! It takes caliber of a different level altogether to be able to create such a mess!
I am ready to be crucified
for feeling the way that I do.
I am willing to take a step aside
and bury my emotions and feelings too.
I may be a little hesitant
to come forth and tell you all.
But one thing I am sure of
is that I am not ashamed of them at all.
I understand that time is precious, typing is hard work and that IT industry is demanding. But I don’t understand ‘conversation’ like this one:
Me: Hello xyz. Good morning
Me: How are you?
(s = yes, k = okay !, and note that there was no reply to the greeting! Is it rudeness or pure indifference to basic manners?)